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OK, morose post coming up. Self-serving, feeling-sorry-for-myself post. If you don’t like whine with your cheese, feel free to skip. No, wait, please don’t, that will make me feel worse. Humor me and read it – leave a comment. Lift my spirits, if you can.

So I wrote about Edward saying he’d met someone he was going to pursue things with. Someone who isn’t me, I might add. This was after a very good first date, and several conversations afterwards. In his email he seemed to imply that he’ll be back in touch if things don’t work out. And I’m thinking to myself – Why would I agree to that? You found someone “better” than me so I have to assume I’m not what really tickles your fancy, and I’d just be someone for you to mark time with until that someone does come along. Right now I’m thinking I don’t think so.

And of course Tim going back to his ex-girlfriend, which pretty much ripped my heart out. Dramatic? Maybe, but I really was smitten, and he seemed to be as well. I wrote earlier about expecting to hear from him someday, and I honestly don’t know what I would do (but it’s fun to fantasize about). A lot would depend on what had happened in the meantime.

So I’ve been dumped twice in three weeks.

It occurs to me that I’m right back where I started* when I decided to jump into the dating world a few weeks ago, but with lower self-esteem.

* I am still “active” with James and do expect to see him again. Although at this point it would not surprise me in the least if he told me he was going to see someone else exclusively.

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